Christmas Eve 2021!

 Phew. Made it this far. Just might make it to 2022. 

The last 2 weeks have been insanely stressful. Just the usual hype, rush and build up to Christmas. I had thought I was reasonably organised, but it turns out that, no, I'm not. And it has made me really anxious.

I have noted that my anxiety has got worse as I have aged. I am pretty sure I never used to give a damn pretty much about anything. Now I find myself micro-managing everything and getting myself in one hell of a state...and then not meeting my own criteria for what I need to be sorted!

The last few days in particular have been   nuts, but here I am, Christmas Eve, and I have made it this far, so I think I'm going to be alright...a week ago I was not so sure.

Everyone turning up tomorrow. I will be stressed until after Christmas dinner....but as for today, I just have 2 jobs to do once I finish work, and the rest will be cruising with my dude. Thank God this nutty season is almost over for another year.



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